Daily Prompt: Gone for good!


Gone? What’s the first thing that comes in my mind after reading this word? 2016.. Yeah 2016 to be serious. 2016 is gone and I miss it a lot.

You know for me 2016 was a Survivor year. It gave me every happiness and then took it and finally taught me how to balance my life between expectations and reality, between being emotional and practical, between heart and mind.

In the starting few months it gave me the biggest problem of my life, thinking of that shakes me out of fear even now. I get thoughts about it every night before sleeping and I face it. Yeah I am a fighter. It scares the hell out of me, I shiver out of fear and then I calm myself down. Not for one day but daily. And I will not let myself be broken by that fear.

Valentines day, 14 February was one of my favorite memory of 2016. I had a long chat with someone I love and he proved my beliefs about him true. Situations wanted me to let him go away but I never gave up on him. So, that was the day my heart won with its love.

In the middle of the year, I was lucky enough to experience a trip in foreign land with my family. That was lovely. Traveling is always fun and when you get peace in your vacations, it is always cherry on the cake. I wasn’t that excited to go. But when I reached Singapore, the city made me fall in love with it. After going I was so excited that I felt bad for leaving the city. Plus it was my birthday trip, have not got such a wonderful gift in life.

It was year of friendships, relations actually a mirror for them. It showed me who is worth to be cared for and to spent my time on. There come many type of people in our lives some stay for small period, some for longer and some forever. 2016 taught me how to differentiate among types of people and deal with their period of time. Yeah I lost some people, Some people lost me. It’s a balance, Not all people are meant to stay. And when you don’t know how to handle friendships ? Learn it, or time will teach as 2016 did to me.

It was whole year of experiments I loved. I turned my friends, by friends I mean close friends including my best friend, my enemies. I left them saying blah blah blah, fighting with them and so on. All fake. Circumstances made me do that. And then after some months I got them back. Yeah because some friends are true friends no matter how you show from outside, they know your true feelings.

Did I mention about mood swings of 2016? Oh! I had never seen such swings in my mood whole life. Have you ever felt numb? Have you ever felt that someone is using a pin in your body but still you didn’t feel that pain? Yeah I experienced it.

I don’t know why? I was doing all fine, actually just living my life and then Tragic turn came. So much feelings to feel and now I can see what I could not at that time. I really thought I was fine, but I was struggling to get a better future. I was struggling to get a living from my present.

 

I felt that I am fine but then I would think what is so good about my life that I am fine? I spent months hanging between fine and not fine. And then came a turn, I stopped caring about anything, means anything in life. Nothing mattered much. Okay someone abused me? Its okay. Someone hurted me? I thought for 5 minutes about it and then I am okay. I failed? Fine, I will give the retest. My friend cheated me? Fine there is nothing that can be done. My ex whom I still love have a new girl friend? Oh that too fine, because I can’t do anything in that.

I kept on analyzing my situations throughout the year. I shared this situation with one of my friend and he replied “You are preparing for a better version of yourself. Have patience and enjoy the transformation.” And now I understand his words. I really was getting better each day. And I am better today.

There was a time I cried myself to sleep almost daily and not knowing the reason. I mean how can someone cry without any reason? That is a tough situation. Sometimes I could see myself getting upset for silly reasons, I should say very sad, like too much. Sometimes I would get irritated and angry on my friends without their fault. And sometimes I speak “So what?”, “That’s your problem” and “I don’t care” when they share about their problems. I mean how does it feel to hear when you are already stressed?

I hurted people and got hurted too. Its okay. They never knew about the hurricane of feelings inside me. Soon they forgot what I did and were happy in there life, as if it hardly mattered. Then came the time I felt nothing again yes again after feeling care for people and then hurting them because I felt I don’t exist in their life as they exist in mine. I felt that my absence won’t matter to them, even if my presence did.So I chose to leave them.

Ya I didn’t soon I went to again in the Not feeling phase for 2-3 months and this time I was pretty cool with it because I had experienced it earlier. Ya I noted every feeling, every part well in my diary (P.S. I am a regular diary writer). And then First feeling I felt is happiness. Yeah I felt happy seeing how much my brother loves and cares for me, I felt happy dancing with friends, I felt happy enjoying festival with my family, I felt happy when I started learning to make android applications, I felt happy when I should. I went to a family wedding and there I had an awesome time. I had my happiness at peak. Then came anger. Yeah the second feeling. I got angry on my brother to say that he want to listen my every feeling when he wasn’t ready. I was angry on him to not being there when I needed him. I was angry on my friends for treating me granted. And that anger brought my all feelings back.

Yupiiee! I survived that phase. ❤ I got my feelings back because I already learnt what I was supposed to learn. I did pass. And in the end of 2016, I confronted with my love, which was one sided. I thought to propose him and listen his NO directly. So that I don’t live in any false hopes and destroy myself again. I got the NO and I moved on. Yeah I was already on my moving on phase from those months of my mood swings. I realized that I have to accept the situation, so it was easy.

And here I am with all my feelings, a better version of myself, writing this post with a happy smile on my face. Yeah I am happy, real one. Because I learnt how to live a life with small moments and make a better future.

I miss 2016. But sometimes Its better to let go. 2016 was meant to go as I already learnt my lessons, its work is over.

Yeah I can proudly say 2016 is GONE with older version of me. GONE FOR GOOD… 🙂

 

 

Daily Prompt: Fortune That Everyone has

Fortune which is known as luck, destiny is well known among people. You could always hear people using luck as a reason of their achievement or disappointment.

When someone crack an interview saying “Oh yeah! It was a lucky  day”.

When a child looses in a race, his friend saying “Its okay. Today was your bad luck. Better luck next time.”

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People in the morning read newspaper where fortune teller tells about how their day will go.

And Sometimes when something bad or good is going to happen…. people believe that this was written in their destiny.

You know What I being an optimist believe?

Fortune is the life we are living. Yeah we are fortunate enough to have a life where we can experience so much, feel so many feelings, listen to different voices, see the nature and everything in world, Smell. Even if any person don’t have these senses, He got his life to make it worth living.

I believe that Everything happens for a reason that is definitely GOOD. You can call it destiny or fortune. But even if things are looking bad to you… just wait, have patience to see that whatever happens for good for you.

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Be fortunate of your life, parents, family, friends and people. Express your gratitude and love towards them… And see the magic of happiness inside you and your life.

Yeah like Fortune cookies you are your destiny. It is a faith or hope of a better tomorrow. So keep your faith in destiny and smile each day for how much lucky you are of what you have! Else what you want you achieve it by hard work. and failure…. Don’t forget failure is first step of success.

So be happy.

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Everyone is Fortunate enough to have this life and this day. 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

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Daily Prompt: Yeah! I am Moody! <3

On a odd silent night, full of thoughts with diary in hand, Surrounded by my favourite colored pens I analyzed my last few months.

I remember I took my favourite colored pen and wrote:

From being loved, being sad, afraid, happy, successful  and with each passing day changing for a better life which I forced myself to, I spent my most of the year. Yeah, I was craving for a better lifestyle which was very important for me to adopt. But do you know how does it feel to be wishing for something badly and not knowing what?

If yes! you got my point. If no, then be happy because this is one of worst situation. When you know your wishes you will come to know how to achieve it. But it is very difficult to find out what you are wishing for when you are so desperate to achieve it.

I wanted a better lifestyle but which one? That I was unaware of. 😮

 

I started with sharing my feelings and getting experiences from elders. Tried sharing my experiences too. I self analyzed with a row of thoughts every night.  I did not use social media for some days. I dropped my phone until my people told me to use it for their convinience. I went out with friends for a break. Family vacations and sharing bonds. And then which each changing behaviour of mine I was moving ahead to achieve the peace of mind I deserve. I unfriended unnecessary people from life. I made many mistakes in the way. I abandoned the close friends whom I thought as a medium of my sadness. And then correcting that mistake in the way too was maturity.

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There was  a time I cried in front of my closed ones. 😥 They saw me happy, grinning, sad, angry and depressed. Sometimes I used to yell so bad that it hurt them with hurting me too. But I never realized it as I had hurricane of emotions in my heart.

After all these experiences I learned a lot. Life is never easy and God didn’t gave it to quit. If not with plan A, plan B or X,Y,Z  you succeed and feel like fallen apart. Stand up and Do you job with a smile on yourself! That’s beauty. 🙂

Some of my ways  were selfish, hurting others, while I showed my different moods to them. But after a time I got used to it and so my people. They understand my love towards them and the fight inside me.

I feel lonely sometimes and irritated because of busy lives and people and lack of attention. I faced it daily as a part of my process. There was a time I used to feel nothing. My mood swings goes on with increasing frequency and I took a mature decision to not disturb people by getting them in my troubles when on the contrary I wanted someone to handle them with love and care. But that is not possible. 😦

 

I became my own angel, enjoy my unexpected behaviour withing myself. And now that is fun seriously.. ❤ Do not expect someone to love you, rather start loving yourself and see the miracle.

And Today I am still on the search with a more experienced and better version of myself. I will try each day with more energy. But I am happy, enjoying my own company of thoughts. Of course, No one can live without friends and family so they make me feel happy when I am with them. But night mood swings problems are purely reserved for the two specials of my life- : ME and MY DIARY! ❤ 🙂

And  I am independent enough to handle my life and can proudly say…. ‘Yeah! I am Moody :)’ 

 

This is the page I read frequently because it never let me break down and always motivates me to keep going! One of my favourite! ❤

 

 

 

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The book of life <3

We all have a blank book of our life, we are all writers in this world and our actions are our words!

Some just keep on writing as their life goes on, and some make it creative by extraordinary happiness and success! Its upon you how to write it making it as creative to be interesting! 

Some will come in your as guest writers, some will come whose memories will become your words, some will come as inspirational quotes, some as motivational learnings and some bad experiences! But its all on you, how you percieve and manage your actions cause even “a good story contains a happy ending which is the outcome of positive attitude”!

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Life is all yours, be positive, be creative! Help others, give happiness and share sorrows! Make your book an inspiration for yours and others as well! Cause life is a single opportunity, dont waste being negative when you have all the capabilities! 

Welcome 2016!! :)

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New year gives new hopes, wishes n dreams!!! It gives the hopes to have new wishes…!! Gives the positivity of a beautiful life ahead!! It gives the dare to complete resolutions regarding bad habbits and unachieved goals!! It gives a new desires to improve ourself!! It gives the new directions for our career!! It gives the opportunity to love more and show care towards our dear words!! And at last it gives the happiness to live your life full of craziness with your whole heart!!! Doing what you love to!!!

Happy new year 2016!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂

Deal the negativity of life!!! :)

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It’s surprising to see that  time is changed. Negative emotions such as jealousy, revenge, pains took control over people. Most of the people are not happy, forgot to laugh!!! They lost all the hopes from their lives!!! 😦 And it’s really sad watching their negativities or the pain they had in past, controlling and resisting them to have a happy life!!!

They do not understand that they are
wrong!!! Their is positivity in everyone’s life!!! Even if you had a bad past, you can have a beautiful future by facing your pains in the present! See around, if the world is full of negativity; then we have nature, a beautiful nature, our God, good people and the close ones who are the proof of positivity! If not, look at your parents, they sacrificed so many things, only for your happiness!! And you don’t see positivity in life.? .. Huh.. Strange!!

Someone said-

“Time don’t heal anything, it just give you strength to face life and let go off your pains”.

But dear, time can make you strong only when you are ready for it!!! If you keep on holding your pains or sadness how will you move ahead to happiness?

Every person faces problems in life!! You might think your were very big in comparison to others, but that’s wrong!! Problems aren’t bigger than you… Cummon!!! You know negativity is very small in comparison to the powers of positivity!!! But yes negativity sticks easily and it become helpless if you face them, just like “fear run away when you run towards to face them”!!! Try to be happy in small things, Small moments and live your life to the fullest!! Show your past that you are stronger than it!!! Because they are many people who had struggled more than you and are living a happy life, take inspiration from them!!! If you want ask me I will help you!! 🙂

Believe in you, love yourself, trust God and leave the pains and accept positivity!!!! Help yourself… Because

” Even God help those who help themselves ” 🙂 🙂

God- Answer to every question..!!

Did you ever found your brain struggling for the complicated questions of your life?? Spent days and nights finding their answers..!! Or just revolving around to find out what’s right and what’s wrong? You have no idea whom to consult for the correct solution when you crave it. Different humans have different perspectives which confuse us and there is only one who is always right- God!

 

God has all the answers of your questions. He’s the one who directs us to the right path. Yes it’s true he loves you conditionally. He is the supporter of truth. To live this life which is God gifted… One must trust God, love and serve him. He is the greatest power, he is the one who converts our sadness into happiness.

 

When you love him, trust him; you get an extra energy- Positivity!! He accepts you in the way you want I.e.  friend, parent, lover etc. He supports you, cares for you, love you when you feel alone.

 

When he is yours, he supports you at each step of life. When you feel stuck, he will show you the right path and help you in every possible way. You need to have a right attitude to follow him.

 

Love him because no one can love you like him. Trust him you won’t get better teacher then him.

Experienced… Try it..!! 🙂 🙂

Dreams,Goals and Success!

Everyone is quite aware of these terms. They play a vital role in your life. Dreams, goals and success sometimes sound the same……! But yes there is  a difference between them. On a professional front….

Dreams– they are the desires to be fulfilled. The desires that are the result of our interest. For example- admission in the best university, job in a multinational company, big earning for a luxury life!!!

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Goals– goals are the steps or the tasks which lead to your dreams.! They are small and big, short term and long term, and according to priority!!! They include planning and accomplishment. Example- securing a seat in best university needs good marks in competitive exams whose preparation can be divided into small goals : syllabus completion in 3 months, revision in 2 weeks or achieving 95%marks in test series.

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Success– it’s the biggest goal of the life. Though as famous quote says-

“Success is a journey not a destination”

Success can be living all your dreams, achieving your life’s happiness on a regular basis!!!! Success is different according to different people, but yes the base of success for all is same- “HAPPINESS”. It’s the victory of our hard work.

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In order to have a great life with full of happiness, balancing these important terms is must.

One must turn their dreams into goals of life and work qualitatively on them because-

Dreams can inspire you, but goals can change your life.

A constructive work with efficient planning on the Goals based on Dreams, lead to Success.

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