Invitation for happiness?

 

Had a bad past? Faced too many problems in life? Had serious mood swings? Handled yourself with courage? That is appreciable. I appreciate you to face such situations and come out of them. That needs courage and you are brave. congratulations.

 

But, are you not able to trust people easily? Happens when we have seen too much. We see everything with a different perception. We become careful with people and situations. We feel like things cannot be happy again. We have problems in accepting normal things. And after a bad relationship? We normally stay away from opposite sex because we think people are fake. We don’t want same bad situations again.

 

I know relationship is a healthy word. But it is attached to too much boundations and  restrictions which makes commitment or the strings attached between two people heavy. You feel attracted, confess the feelings, talk daily, feel loved and happy. You are on the top of the world. Some days same scenario is followed. You get full attention, day in day out. You share things. But then reality hits you. SLAP. You go busy and can’t give time. Have busy schedule and because of tiredness pay less attention. Love decreases and so talks. Once you felt attended was nowhere. You fight because that is how relationship is? You committed but not giving your 100%. So many things happen and then adjustments and compromises dominate rather than love and happiness.

 

Knowing the reality of relationship lifecycle, you should focus on happiness rather than expectations and commitments. You know how relationships work and then you keep distance from it to prevent yourself from hurting. But dear, you cannot restrict yourself because of the fear of pain. I did take a step forward and I am happy. As I took risk you should also. See what life has got for you. If you are afraid of relationship then don’t be in it, spend time and get the happiness you deserve. Do what you like, but when opportunity comes, make sure you don’t spoil it with your own hands. You are not alone, there are many people like you to accept you as you are.

 

Take risks. Take a step ahead. Maybe that’s and opportunity for you.

When life gives you invitation to come out of pain and be happy, don’t waste it because of your bad past or insecurities about future. Be careful with your risks, but don’t give up for them. You never know that can shine your life. Don’t loose hopes. Give yourself a second chance. ❤

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Daily Prompt: Gone for good!

Gone? What’s the first thing that comes in my mind after reading this word? 2016.. Yeah 2016 to be serious. 2016 is gone and I miss it a lot.

You know for me 2016 was a Survivor year. It gave me every happiness and then took it and finally taught me how to balance my life between expectations and reality, between being emotional and practical, between heart and mind.

In the starting few months it gave me the biggest problem of my life, thinking of that shakes me out of fear even now. I get thoughts about it every night before sleeping and I face it. Yeah I am a fighter. It scares the hell out of me, I shiver out of fear and then I calm myself down. Not for one day but daily. And I will not let myself be broken by that fear.

Valentines day, 14 February was one of my favorite memory of 2016. I had a long chat with someone I love and he proved my beliefs about him true. Situations wanted me to let him go away but I never gave up on him. So, that was the day my heart won with its love.

In the middle of the year, I was lucky enough to experience a trip in foreign land with my family. That was lovely. Traveling is always fun and when you get peace in your vacations, it is always cherry on the cake. I wasn’t that excited to go. But when I reached Singapore, the city made me fall in love with it. After going I was so excited that I felt bad for leaving the city. Plus it was my birthday trip, have not got such a wonderful gift in life.

It was year of friendships, relations actually a mirror for them. It showed me who is worth to be cared for and to spent my time on. There come many type of people in our lives some stay for small period, some for longer and some forever. 2016 taught me how to differentiate among types of people and deal with their period of time. Yeah I lost some people, Some people lost me. It’s a balance, Not all people are meant to stay. And when you don’t know how to handle friendships ? Learn it, or time will teach as 2016 did to me.

It was whole year of experiments I loved. I turned my friends, by friends I mean close friends including my best friend, my enemies. I left them saying blah blah blah, fighting with them and so on. All fake. Circumstances made me do that. And then after some months I got them back. Yeah because some friends are true friends no matter how you show from outside, they know your true feelings.

Did I mention about mood swings of 2016? Oh! I had never seen such swings in my mood whole life. Have you ever felt numb? Have you ever felt that someone is using a pin in your body but still you didn’t feel that pain? Yeah I experienced it.

I don’t know why? I was doing all fine, actually just living my life and then Tragic turn came. So much feelings to feel and now I can see what I could not at that time. I really thought I was fine, but I was struggling to get a better future. I was struggling to get a living from my present.

 

I felt that I am fine but then I would think what is so good about my life that I am fine? I spent months hanging between fine and not fine. And then came a turn, I stopped caring about anything, means anything in life. Nothing mattered much. Okay someone abused me? Its okay. Someone hurted me? I thought for 5 minutes about it and then I am okay. I failed? Fine, I will give the retest. My friend cheated me? Fine there is nothing that can be done. My ex whom I still love have a new girl friend? Oh that too fine, because I can’t do anything in that.

I kept on analyzing my situations throughout the year. I shared this situation with one of my friend and he replied “You are preparing for a better version of yourself. Have patience and enjoy the transformation.” And now I understand his words. I really was getting better each day. And I am better today.

There was a time I cried myself to sleep almost daily and not knowing the reason. I mean how can someone cry without any reason? That is a tough situation. Sometimes I could see myself getting upset for silly reasons, I should say very sad, like too much. Sometimes I would get irritated and angry on my friends without their fault. And sometimes I speak “So what?”, “That’s your problem” and “I don’t care” when they share about their problems. I mean how does it feel to hear when you are already stressed?

I hurted people and got hurted too. Its okay. They never knew about the hurricane of feelings inside me. Soon they forgot what I did and were happy in there life, as if it hardly mattered. Then came the time I felt nothing again yes again after feeling care for people and then hurting them because I felt I don’t exist in their life as they exist in mine. I felt that my absence won’t matter to them, even if my presence did.So I chose to leave them.

Ya I didn’t soon I went to again in the Not feeling phase for 2-3 months and this time I was pretty cool with it because I had experienced it earlier. Ya I noted every feeling, every part well in my diary (P.S. I am a regular diary writer). And then First feeling I felt is happiness. Yeah I felt happy seeing how much my brother loves and cares for me, I felt happy dancing with friends, I felt happy enjoying festival with my family, I felt happy when I started learning to make android applications, I felt happy when I should. I went to a family wedding and there I had an awesome time. I had my happiness at peak. Then came anger. Yeah the second feeling. I got angry on my brother to say that he want to listen my every feeling when he wasn’t ready. I was angry on him to not being there when I needed him. I was angry on my friends for treating me granted. And that anger brought my all feelings back.

Yupiiee! I survived that phase. ❤ I got my feelings back because I already learnt what I was supposed to learn. I did pass. And in the end of 2016, I confronted with my love, which was one sided. I thought to propose him and listen his NO directly. So that I don’t live in any false hopes and destroy myself again. I got the NO and I moved on. Yeah I was already on my moving on phase from those months of my mood swings. I realized that I have to accept the situation, so it was easy.

And here I am with all my feelings, a better version of myself, writing this post with a happy smile on my face. Yeah I am happy, real one. Because I learnt how to live a life with small moments and make a better future.

I miss 2016. But sometimes Its better to let go. 2016 was meant to go as I already learnt my lessons, its work is over.

Yeah I can proudly say 2016 is GONE with older version of me. GONE FOR GOOD… 🙂

 

 

Daily Prompt: Mope

 

The worst sadness comes when your hopes are crushed. You must have heard people say “We are not planning anymore because our plans always fails” or “Don’t get too excited your hopes will be crushed”.

 

Yeah that feeling is depressing when you are excited  a lot and hoping something good to happen but that never happens. All of us had this moment at least once when our mood changed from being happy and excited to sad and angry.

And right now if you ask me how am I feeling? I am sad, feeling hurted and angry. Yes I was so happy that I am going to purchase the pair of shoes on which my eyes were set. I was happy to order it. But what happened just crushed my heart into pieces…. Shoes went out of stock.

 

Oh! What a regretful situation was that. 😦 I wished I should have ordered them earlier than waiting for right moment. And here I am sitting and wishing some miracle could happen so that I could get them.

I know sometimes situations are not are not in our hands and feeling sad is okay Okay okay I am fine… Its okay I will buy another one. 🙂

This is how we deal with sadness. As time passes they fades away and so the reason. We must learn to know that its okay if some things don’t go well as planned or some people don’t appear when we are waiting for them. Its pretty okay.Maybe there are some hidden plans behind those cancelled ones. Life is like this. Stay sad but don’t go deep into moping. Stay happy and loved.

Because Whatever happens in life happens for a good reason.

 

 

 

 

 

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Daily Prompt: New Year, New vision.

First of all, Happy new year. May this year brings a new perception of life leading to a happiness and positivity. 🙂

A new year is as special as festivals for us. But why to celebrate a new year? We have our festivals right? Then why an arriving year is special for us? I mean there is no big deal as time passes day changes, month changes so do year. Then why?

Festivals are dear to us because our ancestors celebrated them. According to them, festivals define their rituals and beliefs. But,  I guess festivals are more. They bring happiness all around. Bring all family together thereby enjoying family time. They give peace and break from daily busy schedule and chaos.

And so, A new year is as positive as festivals.We see people taking resolutions to leave their bad habits for the new year, people going on vacations, family gatherings, partying and all. And yes, it is also heard that

If the first day of year goes well then whole year will be full of happiness.

So we try to make our first day memorable so that whole year would be full of happiness, blessings, success and all positive energy. This is what we call Hope. Yes New year is special because we see our life as outcome of years and we hope the changing year will be better than our previous year. And that hope is special. That wish and feeling is SPECIAL.

But why to be positive only in the beginning of an year? People make resolutions, follow them and then boom… after some days they forgot them and go back in their normal life again. Then what is the sense of year? Months also changes and every 30 days we get a new month. Now, if we go for a smaller unit, why not everyday as special as new year? Yea I know people are busy and celebrating every new month and day is not possible. But New year is not about celebrating it is about something more… Happiness, hope, wishes, positivity.

If we cannot celebrate each day then atleast we can welcome each day as each new year by waking up with a cute smile, Having sweet hopes and wishes for whole day and energizing will power to achieve them. Every day full of positivity. Imagine such a life.

Every day is special. As goal is achieved in small steps. An year full of happiness is a combination of 365 days. Its up to you how well you carry each day or each step towards a successful year and thus a happy life.

Do it and you will experience happiness each day.

Today is the first day of rest of your life.

 

Have wonderful pages of your book. Happy new year 2017.

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