Memories…..

Kai dafa Teri yaadon ne gher lia is shahar k raasto Mai,

Jaha hota tha sath vo ab dikhai deta hai sirf yaadon Mai,

Maano sehenshakti ki pariksha li jaa rahi hai,

Bas ek dafa Teri nazar mil jae vo hi khwaish hai,

Bahut Yaad aati hai Teri,

Bahut tadapti hu teri ik jhalak k lie,

Par Zindagi hi ab sawaal si ho gai,

Jo sabse apna tha AJ paraya SA Lagta hai,

Galtiyo ki vajah se hi to,

Jo sabse paas tha aaj sabse dur hai,

Maano ab to aadat si ho gai hai,

Teri yaadon ki aane ki,

Itni ki agle pal Mai tujhse BAAT Kar Lu,

Aur phir intezaar aur sehenshakti,

Ki waqt Nikal jaega,

Phir se Yaad aake chali jaegi,

Phir ye lamha kat jaega.

Par aaj BHI Zindagi Ka Hissa hai tu,

Kaash waapas lautne Ka BHI koi raasta HOTA.

Create a happy life :)

You can see that big and carefree smile of these kids. Remind you of your childhood? You miss your childhood? Yeah I also do. Because it was time we had to just play and learn from surroundings. We had no stress, no responsibilities and no race where we need to prove our self.

You must all be struggling for job or studies or maybe to prove yourself in your field. Some of you might be at a good position but still you are not that happy as you were in childhood. Somewhere we all are working for our dreams or a better life. Some with more dedication, some with fast pace, some with slow pace, some with hard work, some with smart work. We all are doing our part. Even I am. But then sometimes it’s not enough, we need to do more. More and more each day.

What we lack is motivation. Yeah when someone gives us a lecture to work hard and motivates us we are motivated and there work is done. But then we could not stand by it for long. We need more motivation after regular intervals. But then why? Can’t we motivate ourself for the thing which will happen for our benefit only. Stay motivated guys. There are many motivating videos on youtube or read good blogs. People will help you, it’s you who need to keep your distractions and laziness aside to prove people who invoke you or fulfill the needs of your wishes.

Another thing what is a big challenge for us teenagers is that we are involved in lot of emotional ups and downs which is a big distraction. I agree emotional attachments are important and Even I am the person who is attached to so many people who are very important to me. But if those attachments start giving you pain or negativity and keep holding you then you have to take a step for yourself or the person who matter to you. Either leave the attachment or prepare yourself to not let the negativity to destroy you.

I see people having emotional swings, feelingless days and many complex behavior. They teach us a lot but we have to keep a check on them so that they don’t have a bad impact on our career or future. What would be life if you would stay feelingless for a long period like 5 years or full life?

Work on yourself. Take a stand for yourself and fight with negativity. Work hard for your dreams and happy life. Many books say

“There is nothing you can do if you make your mind and work hard in right direction”.

You might be thinking it is not related to the pic at all, but at this point what I ca see in the eyes of those kids are dreams as we had in our childhood. My family members always say “If you study hard then dear your 2 younger sisters will get inspired by you and they will also work for a good and somewhere I believe this is true because our surroundings matter. The difference between IIT, IIM and some private college is that all students in top colleges study hard and get inspired by peers. They have big dreams and work for them whereas in private colleges or not so good colleges you might most of the students don’t work hard, have no dreams and only want the degree. Surroundings matter. If we don’t give up on our dreams, if we don’t work hard to contribute in growth of our country these kids will loose their carefree smile when they come in teenage. If we inspire them, they will also keep on having the happiness inside them.

Moreover if we stand for ourself we will regain the same carefree happiness as we had in our childhood. Work hard, live for your dreams and keep yourself and thousands of happy directly or indirectly by creating a good life for yourself and others.

Invitation for happiness?

 

Had a bad past? Faced too many problems in life? Had serious mood swings? Handled yourself with courage? That is appreciable. I appreciate you to face such situations and come out of them. That needs courage and you are brave. congratulations.

 

But, are you not able to trust people easily? Happens when we have seen too much. We see everything with a different perception. We become careful with people and situations. We feel like things cannot be happy again. We have problems in accepting normal things. And after a bad relationship? We normally stay away from opposite sex because we think people are fake. We don’t want same bad situations again.

 

I know relationship is a healthy word. But it is attached to too much boundations and  restrictions which makes commitment or the strings attached between two people heavy. You feel attracted, confess the feelings, talk daily, feel loved and happy. You are on the top of the world. Some days same scenario is followed. You get full attention, day in day out. You share things. But then reality hits you. SLAP. You go busy and can’t give time. Have busy schedule and because of tiredness pay less attention. Love decreases and so talks. Once you felt attended was nowhere. You fight because that is how relationship is? You committed but not giving your 100%. So many things happen and then adjustments and compromises dominate rather than love and happiness.

 

Knowing the reality of relationship lifecycle, you should focus on happiness rather than expectations and commitments. You know how relationships work and then you keep distance from it to prevent yourself from hurting. But dear, you cannot restrict yourself because of the fear of pain. I did take a step forward and I am happy. As I took risk you should also. See what life has got for you. If you are afraid of relationship then don’t be in it, spend time and get the happiness you deserve. Do what you like, but when opportunity comes, make sure you don’t spoil it with your own hands. You are not alone, there are many people like you to accept you as you are.

 

Take risks. Take a step ahead. Maybe that’s and opportunity for you.

When life gives you invitation to come out of pain and be happy, don’t waste it because of your bad past or insecurities about future. Be careful with your risks, but don’t give up for them. You never know that can shine your life. Don’t loose hopes. Give yourself a second chance. ❤

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Daily Prompt: Gone for good!

Gone? What’s the first thing that comes in my mind after reading this word? 2016.. Yeah 2016 to be serious. 2016 is gone and I miss it a lot.

You know for me 2016 was a Survivor year. It gave me every happiness and then took it and finally taught me how to balance my life between expectations and reality, between being emotional and practical, between heart and mind.

In the starting few months it gave me the biggest problem of my life, thinking of that shakes me out of fear even now. I get thoughts about it every night before sleeping and I face it. Yeah I am a fighter. It scares the hell out of me, I shiver out of fear and then I calm myself down. Not for one day but daily. And I will not let myself be broken by that fear.

Valentines day, 14 February was one of my favorite memory of 2016. I had a long chat with someone I love and he proved my beliefs about him true. Situations wanted me to let him go away but I never gave up on him. So, that was the day my heart won with its love.

In the middle of the year, I was lucky enough to experience a trip in foreign land with my family. That was lovely. Traveling is always fun and when you get peace in your vacations, it is always cherry on the cake. I wasn’t that excited to go. But when I reached Singapore, the city made me fall in love with it. After going I was so excited that I felt bad for leaving the city. Plus it was my birthday trip, have not got such a wonderful gift in life.

It was year of friendships, relations actually a mirror for them. It showed me who is worth to be cared for and to spent my time on. There come many type of people in our lives some stay for small period, some for longer and some forever. 2016 taught me how to differentiate among types of people and deal with their period of time. Yeah I lost some people, Some people lost me. It’s a balance, Not all people are meant to stay. And when you don’t know how to handle friendships ? Learn it, or time will teach as 2016 did to me.

It was whole year of experiments I loved. I turned my friends, by friends I mean close friends including my best friend, my enemies. I left them saying blah blah blah, fighting with them and so on. All fake. Circumstances made me do that. And then after some months I got them back. Yeah because some friends are true friends no matter how you show from outside, they know your true feelings.

Did I mention about mood swings of 2016? Oh! I had never seen such swings in my mood whole life. Have you ever felt numb? Have you ever felt that someone is using a pin in your body but still you didn’t feel that pain? Yeah I experienced it.

I don’t know why? I was doing all fine, actually just living my life and then Tragic turn came. So much feelings to feel and now I can see what I could not at that time. I really thought I was fine, but I was struggling to get a better future. I was struggling to get a living from my present.

 

I felt that I am fine but then I would think what is so good about my life that I am fine? I spent months hanging between fine and not fine. And then came a turn, I stopped caring about anything, means anything in life. Nothing mattered much. Okay someone abused me? Its okay. Someone hurted me? I thought for 5 minutes about it and then I am okay. I failed? Fine, I will give the retest. My friend cheated me? Fine there is nothing that can be done. My ex whom I still love have a new girl friend? Oh that too fine, because I can’t do anything in that.

I kept on analyzing my situations throughout the year. I shared this situation with one of my friend and he replied “You are preparing for a better version of yourself. Have patience and enjoy the transformation.” And now I understand his words. I really was getting better each day. And I am better today.

There was a time I cried myself to sleep almost daily and not knowing the reason. I mean how can someone cry without any reason? That is a tough situation. Sometimes I could see myself getting upset for silly reasons, I should say very sad, like too much. Sometimes I would get irritated and angry on my friends without their fault. And sometimes I speak “So what?”, “That’s your problem” and “I don’t care” when they share about their problems. I mean how does it feel to hear when you are already stressed?

I hurted people and got hurted too. Its okay. They never knew about the hurricane of feelings inside me. Soon they forgot what I did and were happy in there life, as if it hardly mattered. Then came the time I felt nothing again yes again after feeling care for people and then hurting them because I felt I don’t exist in their life as they exist in mine. I felt that my absence won’t matter to them, even if my presence did.So I chose to leave them.

Ya I didn’t soon I went to again in the Not feeling phase for 2-3 months and this time I was pretty cool with it because I had experienced it earlier. Ya I noted every feeling, every part well in my diary (P.S. I am a regular diary writer). And then First feeling I felt is happiness. Yeah I felt happy seeing how much my brother loves and cares for me, I felt happy dancing with friends, I felt happy enjoying festival with my family, I felt happy when I started learning to make android applications, I felt happy when I should. I went to a family wedding and there I had an awesome time. I had my happiness at peak. Then came anger. Yeah the second feeling. I got angry on my brother to say that he want to listen my every feeling when he wasn’t ready. I was angry on him to not being there when I needed him. I was angry on my friends for treating me granted. And that anger brought my all feelings back.

Yupiiee! I survived that phase. ❤ I got my feelings back because I already learnt what I was supposed to learn. I did pass. And in the end of 2016, I confronted with my love, which was one sided. I thought to propose him and listen his NO directly. So that I don’t live in any false hopes and destroy myself again. I got the NO and I moved on. Yeah I was already on my moving on phase from those months of my mood swings. I realized that I have to accept the situation, so it was easy.

And here I am with all my feelings, a better version of myself, writing this post with a happy smile on my face. Yeah I am happy, real one. Because I learnt how to live a life with small moments and make a better future.

I miss 2016. But sometimes Its better to let go. 2016 was meant to go as I already learnt my lessons, its work is over.

Yeah I can proudly say 2016 is GONE with older version of me. GONE FOR GOOD… 🙂

 

 

Daily Prompt: Mope

 

The worst sadness comes when your hopes are crushed. You must have heard people say “We are not planning anymore because our plans always fails” or “Don’t get too excited your hopes will be crushed”.

 

Yeah that feeling is depressing when you are excited  a lot and hoping something good to happen but that never happens. All of us had this moment at least once when our mood changed from being happy and excited to sad and angry.

And right now if you ask me how am I feeling? I am sad, feeling hurted and angry. Yes I was so happy that I am going to purchase the pair of shoes on which my eyes were set. I was happy to order it. But what happened just crushed my heart into pieces…. Shoes went out of stock.

 

Oh! What a regretful situation was that. 😦 I wished I should have ordered them earlier than waiting for right moment. And here I am sitting and wishing some miracle could happen so that I could get them.

I know sometimes situations are not are not in our hands and feeling sad is okay Okay okay I am fine… Its okay I will buy another one. 🙂

This is how we deal with sadness. As time passes they fades away and so the reason. We must learn to know that its okay if some things don’t go well as planned or some people don’t appear when we are waiting for them. Its pretty okay.Maybe there are some hidden plans behind those cancelled ones. Life is like this. Stay sad but don’t go deep into moping. Stay happy and loved.

Because Whatever happens in life happens for a good reason.

 

 

 

 

 

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Daily Prompt: New Year, New vision.

First of all, Happy new year. May this year brings a new perception of life leading to a happiness and positivity. 🙂

A new year is as special as festivals for us. But why to celebrate a new year? We have our festivals right? Then why an arriving year is special for us? I mean there is no big deal as time passes day changes, month changes so do year. Then why?

Festivals are dear to us because our ancestors celebrated them. According to them, festivals define their rituals and beliefs. But,  I guess festivals are more. They bring happiness all around. Bring all family together thereby enjoying family time. They give peace and break from daily busy schedule and chaos.

And so, A new year is as positive as festivals.We see people taking resolutions to leave their bad habits for the new year, people going on vacations, family gatherings, partying and all. And yes, it is also heard that

If the first day of year goes well then whole year will be full of happiness.

So we try to make our first day memorable so that whole year would be full of happiness, blessings, success and all positive energy. This is what we call Hope. Yes New year is special because we see our life as outcome of years and we hope the changing year will be better than our previous year. And that hope is special. That wish and feeling is SPECIAL.

But why to be positive only in the beginning of an year? People make resolutions, follow them and then boom… after some days they forgot them and go back in their normal life again. Then what is the sense of year? Months also changes and every 30 days we get a new month. Now, if we go for a smaller unit, why not everyday as special as new year? Yea I know people are busy and celebrating every new month and day is not possible. But New year is not about celebrating it is about something more… Happiness, hope, wishes, positivity.

If we cannot celebrate each day then atleast we can welcome each day as each new year by waking up with a cute smile, Having sweet hopes and wishes for whole day and energizing will power to achieve them. Every day full of positivity. Imagine such a life.

Every day is special. As goal is achieved in small steps. An year full of happiness is a combination of 365 days. Its up to you how well you carry each day or each step towards a successful year and thus a happy life.

Do it and you will experience happiness each day.

Today is the first day of rest of your life.

 

Have wonderful pages of your book. Happy new year 2017.

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Daily Prompt: Festive Feeling, Christmas!

 

After being a strong girl for a long time she break down this day known as Christmas. She always expressed her love towards her dear ones and never left any chance to show them how important they are in her life.

She had seen lots of ups and downs. She have been lonely. She needed attention and people to express her feelings. She heard Christmas is to grant wishes to lovely person.
Today she have a wish. She is searching her Santa around and expecting sweet surprise which she love too much. She wish each of her loved one to be a Santa and do something or express feelings in such a way to be reminded her importance. She also want to feel special.

Now she is tired of showing love and not being expressed in return. She knows people love her but maybe her chaos is making her memory forgettable. Yeah she needs to be reminded. She needs no money, no expensive gifts…. But true care and love to be expressed!

 

She is trying to find herself in the disturbance of life. She is trying to regain her self. And needs Santas to support her!
May her wishes be granted. My she get lots of surprises and have a wonderful day of her life.

#ChristmasWishes
#LoveRedefined

 

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Daily Prompt: Fortune That Everyone has

Fortune which is known as luck, destiny is well known among people. You could always hear people using luck as a reason of their achievement or disappointment.

When someone crack an interview saying “Oh yeah! It was a lucky  day”.

When a child looses in a race, his friend saying “Its okay. Today was your bad luck. Better luck next time.”

People in the morning read newspaper where fortune teller tells about how their day will go.

And Sometimes when something bad or good is going to happen…. people believe that this was written in their destiny.

You know What I being an optimist believe?

Fortune is the life we are living. Yeah we are fortunate enough to have a life where we can experience so much, feel so many feelings, listen to different voices, see the nature and everything in world, Smell. Even if any person don’t have these senses, He got his life to make it worth living.

I believe that Everything happens for a reason that is definitely GOOD. You can call it destiny or fortune. But even if things are looking bad to you… just wait, have patience to see that whatever happens for good for you.

 

Be fortunate of your life, parents, family, friends and people. Express your gratitude and love towards them… And see the magic of happiness inside you and your life.

Yeah like Fortune cookies you are your destiny. It is a faith or hope of a better tomorrow. So keep your faith in destiny and smile each day for how much lucky you are of what you have! Else what you want you achieve it by hard work. and failure…. Don’t forget failure is first step of success.

So be happy.

Everyone is Fortunate enough to have this life and this day. 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

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Discover Challenge:Finding Your Place

Last summer I spent my holidays in a beautiful place Singapore. They city is clean and beautiful. Lots of greenery and attracting places for tourists made this one my favourite. In just four days the place made me felt like home. I felt immense pleasure in the peace it offered me.

I visited Sentosa Island, Universal Studios, Zoo, River Safari, City tour and malls. Overall the trip was amazing and the best part is It was my birthday trip. It was unforgettable Birthday present.

I know vacations are always enjoyed but there was something in the air of Singapore that made me so familiar with the place. And then when I went to Shimla in India, I felt the same peace there. Wrapped around the routes of mountains, roads too close to clouds, little cold, The place was alive.

In just few days places me so attracted towards themselves that I couldn’t afford departing them. Whenever I leave I promise them to be back again for a longer time.

I realized no matter where you go if a place gives you satisfaction,If you wish to visit the place again, If you feels special  within yourself,  the place is like “home”.  ❤

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Daily Prompt: Yeah! I am Moody! <3

On a odd silent night, full of thoughts with diary in hand, Surrounded by my favourite colored pens I analyzed my last few months.

I remember I took my favourite colored pen and wrote:

“ From being loved, being sad, afraid, happy, successful  and with each passing day changing for a better life which I forced myself to, I spent my most of the year. Yeah, I was craving for a better lifestyle which was very important for me to adopt. But do you know how does it feel to be wishing for something badly and not knowing what?

If yes! you got my point. If no, then be happy because this is one of worst situation. When you know your wishes you will come to know how to achieve it. But it is very difficult to find out what you are wishing for when you are so desperate to achieve it.

I wanted a better lifestyle but which one? That I was unaware of. 😮

 

I started with sharing my feelings and getting experiences from elders. Tried sharing my experiences too. I self analyzed with a row of thoughts every night.  I did not use social media for some days. I dropped my phone until my people told me to use it for their convinience. I went out with friends for a break. Family vacations and sharing bonds. And then which each changing behaviour of mine I was moving ahead to achieve the peace of mind I deserve. I unfriended unnecessary people from life. I made many mistakes in the way. I abandoned the close friends whom I thought as a medium of my sadness. And then correcting that mistake in the way too was maturity.

There was  a time I cried in front of my closed ones. 😥 They saw me happy, grinning, sad, angry and depressed. Sometimes I used to yell so bad that it hurt them with hurting me too. But I never realized it as I had hurricane of emotions in my heart.

After all these experiences I learned a lot. Life is never easy and God didn’t gave it to quit. If not with plan A, plan B or X,Y,Z  you succeed and feel like fallen apart. Stand up and Do you job with a smile on yourself! That’s beauty. 🙂

Some of my ways  were selfish, hurting others, while I showed my different moods to them. But after a time I got used to it and so my people. They understand my love towards them and the fight inside me.

I feel lonely sometimes and irritated because of busy lives and people and lack of attention. I faced it daily as a part of my process. There was a time I used to feel nothing. My mood swings goes on with increasing frequency and I took a mature decision to not disturb people by getting them in my troubles when on the contrary I wanted someone to handle them with love and care. But that is not possible. 😦

 

I became my own angel, enjoy my unexpected behaviour withing myself. And now that is fun seriously.. ❤ Do not expect someone to love you, rather start loving yourself and see the miracle.

And Today I am still on the search with a more experienced and better version of myself. I will try each day with more energy. But I am happy, enjoying my own company of thoughts. Of course, No one can live without friends and family so they make me feel happy when I am with them. But night mood swings problems are purely reserved for the two specials of my life- : ME and MY DIARY! ❤ 🙂

And  I am independent enough to handle my life and can proudly say…. ‘Yeah! I am Moody :)’  “

 

This is the page I read frequently because it never let me break down and always motivates me to keep going! One of my favourite! ❤

 

 

 

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